I cannot believe that today, you are 5 years old. It doesn't seem possible really. Sometimes I look at you and I still see that little baby girl I brought home from the hospital. I see you wrapped up burrito-style in your little blanket sleeping soundly. I would sneak into your room to watch you sleep with your little mouth hanging open and arms thrown up over your head. Sometimes you would kick one of your feet free from your blanket and your little foot would hang out. You didn't seem to mind at all. I even photographed this because I always wanted to remember it. I'm afraid that becoming a mother has caused me to lose many brain cells which has induced memory loss. Of all people it's truly amazing that I am succumbing to memory loss but believe me my sweet daughter, it happens to us ALL.
This morning you came down the stairs and were so excited to see all the decorations that daddy and I hung up for you last night. Of all the things I love about you, I really love the fact that you are so appreciative. You threw your little arms around me and thanked me profusely for "all my birthday things." I love making you happy. I never knew just how happy it would make me seeing you bubble up like that. I love how happy you were with the birthday cake that I TRIED so hard to make for you. And while it's no work of art, it's really not that bad if I do say so myself. Quite delicious in fact.
The one thing I know will not last forever that I cherish every single day, is how you look at me and tell me, "You're my best friend mommy." That makes me want to cry. I want to freeze these moments so they'll never go away. I want to hold your little hand in mine and tell you that we'll always be best friends. No matter what. Becoming your mommy has been one of the single best things I've ever done in my whole life. I love you more than you'll ever know. In my heart, no matter what ever happens between us, you'll always be my best first borne girl.
I love you baby. I hope you have the best 5th birthday ever.
All my love,